I never fully realized that She is the only one I truly love.
I used to be my own 'strength' until she became that to me. I never saw her as my weakness until today. 
Because now I know what I am without her. And I hate being this. 
Sentiments. How I wish they don't come back to me.
This is one of the times I allow myself to drop the walls.
I today want to tell her that,

I have expressed my love thousands of times in countless ways. 
But this is different. 
This is not the same way it was. I know it, you know it. 
The spirit of the same words has changed for me. 
The joy and the feeling of being blessed.....
No matter how much I deny, how hard it is to admit, 
I confess, that I have changed. 
Things affect me. 
People affect me. 
Because the subconscious assurance and the fulfillment of having you, is missing. 
I'm trying to go back to myself, I will I know. 
But right now, the truth is 
You are a huge part of me. 
I could fight any odd 'cause I had You. 
And now I have Me, which should be enough. 
You are here, as you promised. And I know you will be. 
I can't expect more of you than I have, 
But I'll always tell you this, 

I'll wait for all of you, even if it takes forever...